Dear Father God,
I am deeply hurting....
I know Rick wont care in fact he will just make it worst the way he normally does.
I know he deleted a message between him and the woman that is supposed to be his ex.  I know because when I asked him to show me he got all secretive and but I seen the text from her...when he was showing me his texts... It ready "I will send"
When I asked him to show me he wouldn't do it... then later after I left the room and came back he showed me it was gone.  He denied it being there but I KNOW WHAT I SAW!!!
I know he will say I am just crazy and making shit up which will make things worst between us now.  He wants me to trust that they are JUST friends but then he secretly talks to her, hides texts from her, deletes them so I can't see them.  I am still hidden from her so to speak because "she can't take it"  Don't my feelings matter... Don't it matter that it tears me apart...Does not not matter that how he acts with her is breaking me in two.  Does it not matter that he is breaking us!!!
I feel so alone...
Yep he did what I thought he would ... I am a crazy nut job.... He don't want to fix it.
She means more to him then I do obviously.
I don't know what you want for this relationship father but right now it is in HUGE trouble of ending right here right now... he don't even want to fix it.  I need an out and soon.